Trial and Epic Fail

Ventures of an indie game developer

Gigantic logic leap toward enlightenment

As I mentioned before I'd intended to try LSD to broaden my mind, in hope to find some spiritual answers there.

Yesterday I tried DMT instead, which I had planned to avoid (before trying Ayahuasca), but eventually gave a shot after having a few beers. So yesterday I had my my first hallucinations (not counting that one time when I didn't eat any food and only drank alcohol four days straight in colleague). Smoking DMT brings you in and out of a high very quickly, everything's more or less over in 10 minutes. Mostly I saw strange patterns, but the feelings were amazing, especially the inexplicable sensations in the body. Or perhaps from the body. But apart from that nothing insightful on my first trip.

I was actually not disappointed though not much came out of it. It was fun, and that was enough for me. Nothing more could be expected as I'd had a few beers before smoking.

But. Today, totally unrelated to my DMT trip, I stumbled upon the last pieces of the puzzle to complete my book. I saw a 10-year old documentary on youtube that filled in my biggest knowledge gaps, especially on the more philosophical aspects of spirituality. Not only do I now have enough information to finish the book, but I also know how I should live my life. That's far too much to wrap up in a post, it will go into my book. Perhaps I'll translate it if it's any good.

Up until this evening I had come to the belief that spiritual things could not be known with logic, only by experience. I don't think that any more (possibly due to the DMT, but the direct effect should be long gone by now if bio-chemistry is to be trusted).

One pretty hopeful conclusion I just came to is that my book might be able to bridge the gap between traditional western science and spirituality better than most, as I'm fairly well versed in the former and have little dogmatic attachment to the latter.

There is dice being played in the Universe. Mm-mm!

Fox News' 0.2%-truths

Reporters, and the rest of us too for that matter, need to be educated in basic statistics and reasoning. Otherwise the output is utter bs. No news should be taken at face value, and I for one will start treating news in economy and sociology as rumors as long as they're not backed by scientists. Same as we would with harder sciences like psycology, ecology, biology, chemistry and physics.

No one should trust a Fox News journalist reporting on physics, and the case for economics is no different in practice.

Post-truth optimism

I've become increasingly cynical since the advent of post-truth, especially after the half-wit bigot with the fox on top got elected.
  • Yes, he is a half-wit since he would be three times as rich if he placed his inheritance in an index fund instead of trying to manage it himself;
  • yes he is a half-wit since he did try to start uni, but - not unlike The Donald Himself - it was full of feelings, but no substance and it has received a whooping 1.3k lawsuits as a result;
  • yes he is a half-wit and a bigot because he doesn't even know about climate change;
  • yes he is a bigot because he builds walls instead of tearing them down and he wants to prevent muslims visiting although "the threat they pose" is only 0.02% compared to that the NRA poses;
  • yes he is a bigot as he doesn't understand the meaning of the word birth certificate;
  • yes he is a bigot because only after he learnt from president Obama what Obamacare actually is, he changed his stance.
It's easy for common sense-people to become utterly tired of the man who obviously has problems with facts. And I'm sure he would have been pleased to got help winning - when you don't know the truth you need all the help you can get. But he's so generously ignorant, he doesn't even realize when he's been helped. Ahhhh... wounderful to get that off my chest.

Putin on the other hand is not beating about the bush either:
Nuclear-ready КУЗНЕЦОВ in a power display through i18n, British, Swedish and Danish waters.

And of course Facebook's not only selling our opinions any more, its machine-powered "news service" strengthens our ignorance. Myself, I quit looking at all news a year ago. The word news has always been another word for what shit has gone down lately. But globalization and ever-increasing distraction has put a spin on both what and lately. There is always something horrible happening, and the attention span to care enough to actually do something (by which I, being a typical westerner, of course mean donate funds) is zero. That's why papers and journalists don't sell any more.

I'll try to drag my ass out of cynicism by simply looking the other way. My goal is to be more ignorant than Trump. Ok, that's unfair. To myself. Nobody could ever become that ignorant unless actually locked away in an asylum.

What I mean is I'll focus on the good news. What's good at work, what's good in the world, the good people. The Elon Musks, Bill Gateses, Dalai Lamas, Nelson Mandelas and Justin Trudeaus.

And at the same time I'll start experimenting with lysergic acid diethylamide, so my already twisted worldview is bound to escalate. I had forgotten how much freedom it meant being a bachelor:

Energy age II

Yes the age is a-commin'. The venerable Professor Parkhomov at the Moscow State University didn't settle with his first E-cat replication. This time he's done a 40-hour replication generating 300 W of excess heat. We're all wishing him good luck with that manly Проект GlowStick of his!

For a true nerd this sure beats playing with your GlowStick.

Best. Quantum. Theory. Interpretation. Ever.

I lost interest in Quantum theory after hearing about how the "shut up and do the calculus"-version (the so-called "standard interpretation," which pretty much all scientists agree on) was prevalent in teaching and learning at Chalmers University of Technology. I've always found the topic fascinating, but trying to use reality-deficient calculus to explain something so complex only served to kill my curiosity.

Moreover I always thought the Multiverse Interpretation was bs, and while Schrödinger's cat might sound like fun it does very little to make the Copenhagen Interpretation real. But never thought I'd hear another reasonable explanation. That's why it came as an absolute surprise to find my favorite Youtube channel (on parapsychology) give an interview on layman's version of the Transactional Interpretation. The interpretation has been around for 30 years, but the killed curiosity never bothered to look. Interestingly may explain some experiments which the other versions do not, but more importantly it says something about time symmetry. A drug-induced thought of Terence McKenna's comes to mind, "time being a resonance, created by other times."

No matter your stance on PSI or drugs, this is a must-see if you have any interest in the topic what so ever. Have fun!

Trabant 1.1 launch

Trabant v1.1 is out there. The web page got a major overhaul. The simulator got optimized. The IDE got .exe export. The API got a simplified ASCII art generator. I also added 20 new sample prototypes included in the zip. That's pretty much it, apart from optimizations, bug fixes and some minor features. Is it any good? I think so. On the other hand I thought so already at v1.0, and still got absolutely not feedback on that. People's apprehension to trying new things is always annoying to the innovator I guess.

In the future I'm going to build a few games quickly and try to get some attention on that. Or not. We'll see.


I suppose I shouldn't have given Bigdog that last beer.

In Trabant I must introduce servos, that's one thing I hadn't thought about.

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